6 Essential Tips for Dating a Widow(er) 0

In our Your Stories series, people who have lost a loved one share their unique perspective through essays, poetry and artwork. This week, Sarah Keast shares her tips for dating someone whose partner has died.


On my wedding day, I promised my husband I would stand by him until death parted us. I didn’t expect death to part us only 11 years later. I expected death to part us when we were old, wrinkled and grey – not young (ish), partially-wrinkled and slightly-grey. I never expected to be back on the dating scene in my 40s, with two young kids at home and a dead husband in my heart.

Nevertheless, there I was: a young widow, downloading Tinder and Bumble and wondering what the hell to put in my dating profile. I did know I wanted to identify myself as a widow in my profile. I wanted the world to know what I was bringing to the table (beyond my wit and charm and my decidedly plump mom bod, that is).

But what should you prepare for, if the person you like has lost their partner? Here are some things you should know if you’re dating a widow or widower…

1. Be curious

One of the best gifts you can give a widow or widower is to ask questions about their loved one, and to listen to their stories about him or her.

When my boyfriend and I were newly dating, he said to me, “I want you to know you can talk about Kevin as much as you need to or want to with me. He is a part of your life and your daughters’ lives, and I don’t want to change that.”

I could have kissed him! It was so freeing to know that this new person in my life was okay with the dead guy in my life. So ask. Listen. Get to know their person.

 

2. Be gentle

Losing a partner is traumatic. Your new love interest may have been to hell and back leading up to the death of their partner. Losing someone to addiction, or suicide, or watching your partner die a slow death from cancer is not easy. It brings with it a multitude of confusing and complicated feelings. These feelings do not go away when a widow or widower starts dating.

There may also be things that trigger them. Tiny things that can cause an emotional reaction that has nothing to do with you, but that you nevertheless have to bear the brunt of. For example, many widows and widowers will frantically text or call their new partner when an initial text or phone call is not returned in a reasonable time frame.

Why? Our last experience of a text or phone call not being returned was when our partner died and we did not yet know it. Our brains know that most likely your phone died or you fell asleep, but our hearts are screaming, “but what if he is dead?!”

So, be gentle. We know these behaviours are irrational, but it will take time for these wounds to heal.

 

3. Be supportive

The wounds of loss do not heal overnight. The grief I carry will never go away, but my life is getting bigger around it. My boyfriend understands the weight of my grief, and does not pressure me to “get over it” or “move on”. He simply holds my hand, hugs me and wipes my tears away when a wave of grief comes.

Waves of grief will come! Sometimes obvious things like holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries bring them on. Other times, it’s random stuff like trips to Home Depot, getting your kids report card or watching a certain TV show. They will come and then they will pass. Your gentle, supportive presence will be your partner’s anchor as they navigate these waves.

 

4. Be understanding

Profound loss is life changing and the grief that comes with it is everlasting. If you have not yet been through profound loss, expanding your understanding of what grief feels like will do wonders for your relationship with a widow or widower. Pressuring us to move on or to get over it is not helpful. Understanding that we will never get over it, but we will survive and thrive again is far more helpful.

Nora McInerny, an author and a podcaster, has a powerful TED talk on how we don’t move on from grief, but we do move forward with it. It is worth watching.

5. Be grateful

Your new love has had his or her heart broken wide open. They have survived indescribable pain and suffering. This warrior you now love has learned priceless life lessons far earlier than most. They know how precious and important each moment is.

He or she stood by their partner as they died, and they showed up for that person in the face of many horrors. They now will show up for you with that same fierceness and love. They know the most important thing in life is connection and love. They know life is short and can be lost in an instant.

Be grateful you are with someone who has the strength to endure the worst and who now has the wisdom and gratitude that comes from surviving this pain.

 

6. Be confident

Despite the fact that a widow or widower may talk about their late partner a lot, have their photo displayed or feel waves of grief regularly, they have chosen to be with you. They have chosen to let you into their wounded, grieving heart. They have chosen to open themselves up and to risk loss again, to be with you.

Do not feel threatened or overshadowed by their dead person. You are a safe place for their grief and a safe place for their love. They did not make this choice lightly. Be confident in their love for you.

Yes, your new partner brings their dead person to your relationship. Their relationship with their dead person contributed to the person they are today so cultivate gratitude for the path they have walked, as it brought them to you. They also bring a fierceness, a strength and a depth of soul that is rare and unparalleled.

Tread gently, carefully and with patience. You will be rewarded with a relationship that is deep in connection, love, trust and support.


Sarah Keast is a writer and activist, raising awareness around addiction and mental health. You can hear more from Sarah on her TEDx talk here, and on her blog, Adventures in Widowed Parenting.

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Laura’s Story: Meditation & Healing from Grief 1

In our Your Stories series, people who have lost a loved one share their unique perspective through essays, poetry and artwork. In this thoughtful piece, Laura Siegel describes how meditation helped her heal after the loss of her husband.

My husband died three years ago, shortly after his 74th birthday. We were together for 57 years. About a year before he died, a social worker recommended a meditation app called Insight Timer and the guided meditations seemed to help him immensely. So, the day he died, I began practicing them too.

The biggest challenge I faced was the ability to focus. My mind was in a constant state of fear and anxiety and thoughts wandered every which way. My heart hurt all the time.

My rabbi recommended that I try grief meditations. These were easier for me to follow. The one that helped the most was Guided Meditation for Grief, Anxiety, and Stress by Heather Stang. Her gentle voice is so soothing, and there’s lots of space in the meditation for silence. Other meditation teachers I’ve enjoyed on Insight Timer are Meg James, Tara Brach, Kristin Neff, and Lisa Machac. Pretty soon, I was meditating five times a day and getting much-needed relief.

After my husband died, the silence of his absence was devastating.

 

After my husband died, the silence of his absence was devastating. Sure, there were friends, movies, and TV, but for the most part there was this great void of human sound and closeness. Listening to guided meditations has helped to fill this void.

Along the same lines, listening to audiobooks also helped. I was no longer able to focus on reading: my grieving brain could not process the words. But I have always loved audiobooks, and I soon realized that they were becoming my companions as well. Simply listening to a vital living voice helped me through my grief and I did not feel as isolated and alone.

I found audiobooks by other widows and widowers to be extremely helpful. We all share the same struggle. Here are a few that have particularly moved me:

  • A Widow’s Story by Joyce Carol Oates
  • Unremarried Widow by Artis Henderson
  • The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion
  • A Widows Walk: A Memoir of 9/11 by Marian Fontana
  • The Widower’s Notebook: A Memoir by Jonathan Santlofer
  • A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis

I also joined several online widow and widower groups via Facebook, Hope for Widows and Hot Young Widow’s Club (you don’t have to be young or hot). Speaking to the other widows was like having a circle of nurturing support surrounding me. We are even able to laugh with each other – another important component of healing from grief.

Meditation is giving me a foundation for living a calmer, more peaceful life.

I begin each day with a 30-45-minute guided meditation (three years ago I started with shorter ones). I don’t even get out of bed. This is the easiest time for me to follow my breath and nurture myself. I do the same in the late afternoon. Right before bed, I listen to a five-minute guided meditation and then fall asleep to soothing music. My favourites are Gentle Morning by Weston Brown and Devotion by Mary Maddux.

There are other ways that I meditate, like taking walks in nature and swimming. When I am swimming it’s impossible to feel anxious or worried. I am simply moving with my breath.

I am beginning to feel the same way when I do guided meditations. My breath is guiding me. It’s as if there is nothing to fear, nothing to worry about. This is carrying over into my daily life. Things that have caused me stress before no longer have the same power. A sense of calm and contentment that I have never known before sweeps through me. I can also rest more easily. I can more easily accept my difficult feelings. I am less angry. I appreciate silence more. I can be happy with what I have.

Meditation has changed me very gradually. In the beginning I could not follow my breath without a million thoughts encroaching. And yet I’ve learned that it is the nature of the mind to think. Meditation does not mean that you stop thinking. It means that you notice thinking and return to your breath. Meditation is about learning to stay with what is.

Meditation is giving me a foundation for living a calmer, more peaceful life. Meditation gives me a way to take care of myself in every moment.


 

Laura Siegel is a writer supporting other bereaved partners through her blog, Breathing Into Healing.  She is also the co-editor of the anthology Out of the Closet, Into Our Hearts: Celebrating Our Gay Family Members.

If you liked this piece, we’d like to invite you to donate to the Leukaemia and Lymphoma Society in memory of Laura’s husband Howard. You can pledge a donation here.

And for more information about meditating for grief, you can check out our beginner’s guide to bereavement meditation with Heather Stang here.

A Beginner’s Guide to Meditation for Grief 0

When you first lose someone you love, grief can feel like an unstoppable force. Even after the raw ache of it fades, the odd trigger – an anniversary, an uncanny resemblance – can bring it surging back into your life years later, painful memories in tow.

Everyone who grieves copes with this in their own way. But one technique we hear about a lot is meditation: learning to focus the mind, so that stress is eased, and distressing thoughts are placed into perspective.

So, how does meditation for grief work, and where do you start? We caught up with Heather Stang, author of Mindfulness & Grief and the host of the Mindfulness & Grief podcast, to put together these essential tips for beginners…

1. Start with some self-care

“In my opinion, the first thing to manage in the early days of grief is the physical body,” Heather explains. “Without good sleep, nutrition and hydration, it is hard for our brain to function.”

So, try to get back into good habits by sticking to a routine: three meals a day, plenty of water, an early night. Look after yourself. As you do, you can start introducing a few simple meditation exercises to help you get the rest you need:

“Focusing meditation practices send a signal to our body that we are safe, switching off the stress response that prevents us from sleeping,” Heather says. “You simply choose one thing to focus on, place 100% of your attention as best as you can, and practice, practice, practice.”

Want to try? Start by breathing in deep, and then breathing out slowly, repeating a word over and over each time you exhale. Begin again each time you forget.

It’s more important to practice a little each day than binge-meditate one or two days a week!

2. Work your way up to the harder stuff

“Start small,” Heather recommends. “Ideally, you want to practice for 10-20 minutes a day, but I have many clients who say that just a few minutes of practice can improve their mood. It’s more important to practice a little each day than binge-meditate one or two days a week!”

Guided meditations for grief are a good start, with apps like Insight Timer, Calm and Headspace taking you through soothing exercises. You can find free videos online as well: Heather’s site hosts a relaxation meditation for grief, anxiety and stress, while YouTube is a veritable treasure trove of guided meditations on all sorts of themes.

Having a community can also help, Heather explains. “Whether you join an online meditation for grief group, or start attending classes at your local meditation center, connecting with others like yourself will kick-start your practice and help you stay on track and overcome practice pitfalls.”

3. Find the right technique for the right moment

Different types of meditation can help with grief in different ways, Heather tells us. The key is to know which technique to use when:

  • Focusing practices, such as mantra-based meditations, or counting from one to ten and back down again, can help steady a ruminating mind and calm anxiety. These are particularly useful for helping us get the sleep that can be so evasive when we’re grieving.
  • Mindfulness practice, which is paying attention to the present moment and what you can see, hear, smell and feel with a sense of openness, can help us “understand what’s real, without all the stories that our mind makes up,” Heather says. “It can also help us appreciate what we still have, tapping into our inner wisdom and knowledge.”
  • Compassion meditation, which uses visualisations and mantras to encourage us to feel more kindly towards ourselves and others, can help us feel more connected – and, says Heather, even reduce feelings of loneliness.

As you practice different grief meditation scripts and techniques, you’ll also find that some work for you better than others. Pay attention to the way you feel before and after a session and mentally bookmark the methods that really transform your outlook.

When you meditate, you have a skill that helps you decide how you want to be with your thoughts.

4. Remember, anyone can meditate for grief

Forget your preconceptions: you don’t have to have a New Age-y interest in incense and candles to meditate, or even a naturally calm demeanor. As Heather explains, anyone can do it:

“Many people think they ‘can’t’ meditate because they have an active mind. But the reality is that no one has a calm mind without practice – and even if you do meditate you will still have thoughts. The difference is that when you meditate, you have a skill that helps you decide how you want to be with your thoughts. And it is a skill: you can learn it, it just takes practice.”

That said, Heather recommends that people with post-traumatic stress disorder, intrusive images or other hallucinations talk to a mental health professional before meditating. You may also want to seek out a trauma-sensitive meditation teacher or yoga therapist. “This does not mean meditation won’t work for you – it might – but it needs to be approached with care and modified in a way that cultivates safety,” she warns.

Just remember that there are no good or bad meditators. There are just people that meditate and people that don’t.

5. Don’t be hard on yourself

It’s not always easy to meditate. Sometimes, you’re just busy, or tired, or your thoughts are too loud to settle down properly, and you struggle to focus. This is natural. According to Heather, the most important habit to get into when you’re using meditation for grief or healing is self-compassion:

“Rather than trying to be perfect, just be kind to the person you have the most control over – you.” She says. “You’ll forget to practice one day, two days, a month. Your mind will wander off a million times during a 5-minute practice. Self-compassion means that instead of judging yourself or giving up, you just begin again when you remember.”

When you stop pressuring yourself to be perfect, you’ll find that it’s easier to pick yourself back up and try again.

“Just remember that there are no good or bad meditators,” Heather advises us. “There are just people that meditate and people that don’t.”


 

Heather Stang is the author of Mindfulness & Grief and the host of the Mindfulness & Grief podcast. She runs online meditation for grief groups and leads programs around the US for grief professionals and bereaved people alike. Heather also holds a Masters in Thanatology (death, dying & bereavement) and is a certified yoga therapist.

You can find out more about Heather and her approach on her website here, and you can buy Mindfulness & Grief from Amazon here.

 


 

If you’d like to find out more about meditation and grief, it’s well worth taking a look at Laura Siegel’s powerful story, Meditation and Healing After Grief. In it, Laura describes how meditation and mindfulness helped after the devastating loss of her husband.