Many years on, I want to talk about my friend. Our journey together was not easy. I remember an extraordinary man of many depths and huge talents. As time has passed, I remember the good things. I know that life did not end well for you and for that I am so sorry. I feel that I let you down and I still carry that guilt and shame. I ask that you forgive me for anything that I did wrong and hope that you have found peace where you are now.